Yet, I Can't

To forget everything, yet I can't.
To accept everything, yet I can't.
To move forward, yet I can't.
To close the past, yet I can't.

No matter how hard I tried.
No matter how far this path threaded.
No matter how long I walked.
No matter how shattered I become.
I can't, I just can't.

While everyone else move forward.
While everyone else smiles in happiness.
While everyone else do their best.
While everyone else fight for future.
I can't move, numb. Stuck in the backline.

Even if I switch sides.
Even if I turn away.
Even if I close my eyes.
Even if I hide my heart.
I just can't. No matter how I strive.

As if, the binds still restrain.
As if, the feelings always remain.
As if, the emotion are same.
As if, the time remains static.

Is it a bless, or a curse?
Is it a punishment, or a guidance?
Is it a hope or a despair?
Is it a light, or a darkness?
I cannot even understand.

Even after path separation.
Even after life splits.
Even after road disperse.
Even after light dims.
Yet, I can still see your shadow.

And here, without answer, I ask :
Why?